So I Said, "I Will Create Them!"
Almost exactly one year ago, I am not sure the exact time and day, I was riding my stationary bike. It was one of those days I was really feeling down, and I knew that I needed to exercise to keep away the depression that chases me. I remember wishing that I had a new workout to do, something fun and different. I really wanted that cool workout that promised the world in 30 minutes a day. I was tempted to go into pity-party mode but that never works, so I changed my thoughts. Reframing thoughts is a valuable skill I learned several years ago. It takes discipline to do, but I have gotten pretty good at it.
Early in 2013 I became aware of a whole new world, the “interwebs” as my sons call it. My friend VaShaun Jones, introduced me to it all…blogging, podcasting, and website development. Suddenly there on my bike my mind opened to another new possibility. When I had the thought, “I wish I had a new workout”, instead of getting pissed off because they are not accessible to me, I said to myself, “I will create them!” As the thought paraded into my consciousness, my heart began to pound and a chill ran through me. I knew in an instant that the words I had just said in my mind were the truth, “I will create them.” It was a fact, that would come to be. I kept peddling but I was lost in a new vision, a new future for myself and blind people everywhere. It even occurred to me that I could create exercise programs that sighted people would like too. I peddled and let my mind flow with all the huge ideas. There was no stopping the rush, and I let it take me.
It is a year later and I have never stopped peddling. The statement, “I will create them” has become part of my whole self. This year has been a whirlwind! I am a year older. BlindAlive, LLC exists. I have a team, six workouts with more in process, a website, and an Amazon store. I even have a lawyer, accountant, bookkeeper, and an administrative assistant. This is mind blowing to me. This is me! I did this. I had lots of help but I powered it.
I am proud, grateful, and now excitedly terrified. What have I done? Now I have responsibilities that are not so easy to run away from when I go into fear or impatience. It scares me, but mostly I feel empowered as I “create them.” I will create as much as I can. I want to peddle straight into that fear. Now responsibility, and joy flood into me whenever I get an e-mail that says, “This is exactly what I have been looking for. Thank you for doing this.” In that moment, I am sitting in a sea of gratitude and wonder.
What I have done, you can do also. Just take charge of your thoughts. Redirect your pity-party. Reframe it and make a new statement. Chances are that others will want what you are wanting for yourself. Even ask for help. Asking for help has been the hardest part and still is, but I have and I will keep asking. You can too.
Where will we be next year? Well, what do you want to create for yourself? Do it!
Mel Scott BlindAlive, LLC Founder and President BlindAlive.com Facebook Twitter LinkedIn